Narcissistic Mother

Narcissistic mothers cause pain, but there’s much you can do to reclaim your life and thrive despite having one.

As a psychotherapist in private practice, I’m often asked, “What can you do when you have a narcissistic mother?”

It is a poignant question because we’re all an extension of our mother in some way or another. You, for instance, may have similar physical features or personality characteristics that make people realize you are a product of your mom.

But, how do you protect yourself when your narcissistic mother, the very woman who gave you life or raised you, demands you provide her with the unconditional, one-way love that she feels entitled to…no matter how she treats you?

When this is the case, your narcissistic mother may see you as something that she created with the hope to have a copy of herself for her own amusement. Or, she may see you as an object, like a piece of luggage that should serve her when she needs it and be out of the away when she does not.

If so, you may have been treated with such disrespect and abuse that makes it difficult for you to develop any sort of real relationship with your mother, let alone feel the love towards your mom that she expects you to give. To the outside world, everything may have appeared perfect, but behind closed doors? That’s where the horror was released.

Many a narcissistic mother is aware of her demanding ways and believes everyone should treat her in the fantastical way that she sees herself. She may live in their own little world where her accomplishments, real or fake, are of grand proportions that no one else can live up to.

To this day, her expectations of you may be ever-changing and not truly attainable.  If you have a narcissistic mother, you may feel you are never good enough, or that you must compete with your siblings for her approval or affection. And, no matter how much you achieve or strive to accommodate her, you will not measure up to her unrealistic expectations.

Why do narcissistic moms have children?

When a narcissist has a child, it is not for the same reason that others procreate. She does so because she wants that child to satisfy her unmet needs.

These can vary from the need to feel like she will always be loved by you, or the hope she’ll be more bonded to her husband by providing a child, or the belief she’ll never be alone, or to have the illusion of another chance at life and so on.

Some narcissistic mothers essentially want a real-life extension of themselves, only to be deeply upset about the fact that they did not receive that “mini-me” from you. If, due to being a child, you could not meet her needs, your mother may have withdrawn from you or have become demeaning, critical, and manipulative. In short, it wasn’t acceptable for you to be a child because a child is, by its very nature, needy and “perfectly imperfect.”

The narcissistic mother’s love is typically volatile and conditional.   Below are three common roles in which the sons and daughters of narcissistic mothers often find themselves cast.

The roles can be projected by the narcissist onto one sibling then the next and the roles can last for moments or years.  Even more confusing, you may have been cast in different roles at different time in your childhood.  Read below to try to recall what roles you played and when you were cast.

Lost Child

This role involves a great deal of neglect.  Your narcissistic mother was simply not aware of, or interested in, your needs.  You could be sent to school with clothing too big or small, dirty, or unmatched.

You may have been teased by other kids because you did not have enough positive attention paid to you at home to know what was socially acceptable behavior. You often felt unlovable or unworthy because you were not treated as inherently valuable.

Scapegoated Child

Nothing you did was ever good enough. What may have satisfied your narcissistic mother one day could disappoint her the next.

If you expressed you felt your mother treated you unfairly, she might have led you to believe that you were crazy and ungrateful.  The “love” and “thoughtfulness” she gave you through her constant criticism was to be treasured.

If you did something of value and worth, you may have been cut down and made to believe that your accomplishments had no meaning in your narcissistic mother’s eyes.   Or, you could have been elevated and bragged about to the point of objectification.  (See Chosen, Hero or Golden child below.)

Chosen, Hero or Golden Child

To be the Chosen, Hero or Golden child of a narcissistic mother is usually the complete opposite of the scapegoat child. You are worshipped and idolized by your mother from the moment you are born.

You are the one person in her life that can do nothing wrong and every accomplishment, no matter how small, deserves a parade in her eyes. You’re a representation of the best of her, the golden child.

You may become even more important than her spouse in a sometimes provocative and psychologically seductive way.

Lost Child, Scapegoat & Chosen, Hero or Golden Child in a Narcissistic Family System:

Many times, there’s a golden child and a scapegoat in the narcissistic family. The golden child is a “favorite” of the mother’s choosing. Then there’s the scapegoat, the one who gets the blame for everything, the one who can never be as good as the mother or the golden child.

The scapegoat never measures up in the mother’s eyes. She can win awards, get good grades, get into a great school, but it goes unnoticed or unacknowledged.

If it’s noted, it’s usually done so in a way that makes the mother look good, saying that everything the child has learned is because of the mother’s parenting efforts.

The Lost Child will sometimes be relieved to hide from the narcissistic mother and at other times be pulled into more attention getting roles.

Why Don’t Narcissistic Mothers Change?

Narcissistic moms blame everyone else, and too often their children, for the consequences their own self absorbed choices have caused. It often falls to friends and family members to point out the extreme oddity of the narcissistic mother’s ways and recommend treatment. Even when offered help, a narcissist is more likely to be offended than to seek treatment.

Ironically, though the people around the narcissistic mother can identify the source of their suffering, the narcissist does not believe she is the one who should change.

Therefore, it is unlikely your mother sought treatment for narcissism.  In contrast, she may have put you in treatment with the hope that you would become easier to deal with.

Children and spouses are the ones who often suffer most, not the narcissist themselves, because the narcissist doesn’t feel that their chronically self-absorbed behavior is just that. Quite the opposite, actually. The narcissistic mother feels that everyone else is at fault when things go wrong.

As a child, you had to learn from very early on how to please your mother enough to survive. You may have grown up to think that nothing you ever do is good enough and that you are not worthy of the love you desire.

Narcissism, at its extreme, is a mental disorder called Narcissistic Personality Disorder, (NPD), characterized by exaggerated feelings of self-importance, fantasies of success, power, and physical attractiveness that the person may or may not possess, a constant need for attention and admiration, and obsessive self-interest. These are the obvious symptoms that people think of when they think of the term “narcissism.”

There are a cluster of personality disorders, including NPD, that are on the narcissistic spectrum described by the Diagnostic Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV) and they include Borderline Personality Disorder as well as Histrionic Personality Disorder.

These disorders describe different chronic behavioral patterns often exhibited by a narcissistic mother who may not even be aware of how she is treating you.

In sum, the first step in dealing with a narcissist is to identify the repetitive hurtful behaviors rooted in how you were cast in the roles identified above.  Accept that your narcissistic mother is highly resistant to change.  Then, learn how to best respond to her negative behaviors in order to protect your happiness.

Why Narcissists Have Children

Why do narcissists even have kids in the first place?

I’m going to cut straight to the chase on this one. Narcissists do not have children for the same reason that emotionally healthy people do.

They have them because they need more mirrors, more images to remind themselves of how great they are and how they brought someone into the world that is like them.

Unfortunately for the narcissistic parent, this isn’t the case 99.9% of the time because as children age, they develop their own sense of self and their own personality apart from their parents. Then they become more of a burden than a blessing on their narcissistic parent.

Some narcissists become parents out of accident or because of an ill-thought out plan they created to have someone there to love and admire them without having to give it back in return.

They’re looking for the narcissistic supply which they try to obtain from anyone and everyone. They believe that having a child will give them an endless supply because their child must love them and has to be a part of their lives, while they’re young at least.

Narcissists see their kids as someone they can put their name on, a product that they can put out into the world with their branding all over it. They use their children to gain self-esteem and as someone they can easily walk all over. They want their children to take care of them and reverse the roles of how parent-child interactions should be.

Narcissistic parents try to control their children in every facet of their lives.

They try to keep their children from growing up and gaining their own identity, fearing it will lead their children to leave them and go on to live their own lives.

Narcissistic parents try to control their children in four different ways:

  1. Guilt-driven: They make their children feel guilty and making them feel like a burden on the narcissistic parent. They say things like, “I sacrificed my life, my body, for you…”
  2. Dependence-driven: The narcissistic parent makes their child feel that they could not go on living without their child in their life. They tell their kids that they need them and that they cannot take care of themselves, their lives, and their well-being by themselves.
  3. Goal-driven: I like to call this the Tiger Mom Effect. This means that the narcissistic parent, not necessarily the mother (although it usually is), is always striving or making their child strive to be the best no matter what and no matter if the child is truly interested in the goal or not. They live vicariously through their child and ride on the coattails of their achievements. They may say things like, “We have a goal we need to achieve…”
  4. Explicit: This type of control is based on negative repercussions if their child does not do what they want or say. They withhold rewards and give excessive punishment if they do not get their way. This can be very draining on the child because they feel that they can never do anything right.


Most narcissistic mothers see motherhood as a burden and like to let it be known how much work it is. They do not take into account that children are not merely mirrors of themselves and that they are actual human beings with wants, needs, and feelings different than their own.

They often pick a favorite, or a golden child, who can do no wrong and grows up with unrealistic expectations of praise and worth. They also have children that are the scapegoats, the ones who all the blame is put on and are never worthy enough no matter how great their achievements may be.

They play the children off of each other for their own amusement, which causes riffs between the siblings that may not be mended easily. The narcissistic parent is always comparing the children and blaming them for his or her shortcomings.

Narcissistic parents treat their children in different ways. They either try to control them, ignore them completely, or engulf them and make it so they cannot develop into their own self.

A narcissistic mother fails to treat her child as an authentic person with wants and needs which may not match up with hers. She is completely self-centered and needs the attention to be all about her no matter what. If her child’s accomplishment is something to be admired, she’ll take all the credit for it while at the same time telling their child that they could’ve done better.

Parenthood is never about anyone else but them. For most people, having a child means having someone to take care of and love, not the other way around. A narcissist cares about no one but themselves and not even having a child can change their mindset.

Narcissistic Types

There are many faces of narcissism. Some of these may not be scientific or politically correct terms, but I feel that if you have a narcissistic mother in your life, you may be able to recognize some of these and nod your head in agreement.

  1. The Time Hostage: Your mom gets mad at you when you need to reschedule but assumes you will reschedule with her and/or repeatedly cancels on you last minute.
  2. The Quietly Self-Absorbed Narcissist: She’s socially withdrawn and odd thinking, with morose self-doubts and a relentless search for power and has fantasies of great achievements.
  3. The Nice Narcissist: She’s nice. She just needs you to agree with her at all times or she won’t like you.
  4. The Victim: She is unable to take accountability for her choices.  She looks at a problem and blames it on something out of her control instead of searching for anything in the situation she can change.
  5. The Attacker: She comes at you with attacks to see if you admit to anything or, as a way of expressing her fears.
  6. The Downer: She is so busy talking about why everything is lacking that she isn’t emotionally present to you.
  7. The Assessor: It is her job to critique how you measure up and point out anything you could improve on, not to give at least equal time to telling you what you do right.
  8. The Credit Taker: She takes credit for everything, whether she deserves it or not. She passes the blame onto others, whether justified or not. She’s always right, never wrong.
  9. The Jealous Narcissist: If you have it, she wants it or will strive to make it seem worth less than it is and devalue it.
  10. The Competitor: She lets you know you may be good but she is better, or prettier, or smarter, or more accomplished than you’ll ever be.
  11. The Operator: She work’s her own agenda at all times. She’s walled off in her plans for you and everyone else whether you agree with her or not.
  12. The Fading Beauty: She is not handling the aging process well and looks at your comparable youth as an affront.
  13. The Beauty Queen: She identifies herself strongly with her attractiveness and may have been the homecoming queen, the best dressed, or known for her beauty.  She’s especially bothered if you don’t try to make the most of your looks.
  14. The Innocent Narcissist: She’s highly defensive and extremely hostile but masks it behind a “poor me” facade of vulnerability.
  15. The Enraged Narcissist: She screams to get her needs met and projects rage without a filter, not caring who sees it. She doesn’t apologize for her actions.
  16. The Vengeful Narcissist: She enjoys inflicting pain on others and getting back at them if she does not get her way.
  17. The Passive Aggressive Narcissist: She sulks and gives the silent treatment and plots how to punish those who don’t give her what she wants. She is vindictive and capable of becoming a stalker.
  18. The Stealth Narcissist: She fakes an interest in other people and their needs and knows that acting concerned with get her what she wants.
  19. The Cruel Narcissist: She is never fair and her discipline shows that. She knowingly causes you pain and enjoys knowing that you are miserable.
  20. The Character Assassinator: She is always trying to tarnish your reputation by lying, exaggerating, or manipulating the facts to make you look bad and to make her look good.
  21. The Stingy Narcissist: Gifts, compliments, advice and money are given, but look out when you inevitably fail.
  22. The Wounded Narcissist: She feels victimized and the world is against her. She needs you to take care of her and aid in her every want and need.
  23. The Disdainful Narcissist: You are treated as though you are less than what she expected, a disappointment or failure.
  24. The Scapegoating Narcissist: Her life would be better if you were better, or whoever she’s choosing to scapegoat was better. And it will not be better until this person changes.
  25. The User Narcissist: She takes advantage of you and treats you as more of an employee than anything else. She uses you to get ahead in her own life.
  26. The Boundary-less Narcissist: There is no difference between you and her, you are an extension of her and therefore she has no limits. She intrudes on your space and looks through your personal belongings. She embarrasses you constantly.
  27. The Amnesia Narcissist: No matter what healthy requests you’ve made, it is as if you have to repeat yourself every time. For example, “Please don’t hug me or kiss me, it makes me feel uncomfortable,” is ignored.
  28. The Needy Narcissist: “You don’t give me enough calls” or attention. She wants more from you than anyone could deliver.
  29. The Time-Sucker Narcissist: You could spend every minute with this person and they would still feel neglected.
  30. The Mind-Reader Narcissist: You didn’t say it, you didn’t think it, and yet they have read into something and insist it is true.
  31. The Clairvoyant Narcissist: You didn’t say it, you didn’t think it, but once they have said it you realize it’s true and it’s usually something negative about them (can cause identity confusion for you).
  32. The Touchy-Feely Narcissist: You are expected to tolerate her touching you however and whenever they want.
  33. The Holiday Narcissist: You don’t exist unless it is their birthday or a holiday where she feels the need for family time.
  34. The Glamour Narcissist: She is all about making herself look good. She buys the most expensive clothes, gets her hair and nails done, and doesn’t care about the amount of money she spends.
  35. The Rockstar Narcissist: She believes that she is the center of attention and it should always be that way. She’s the main attraction and wants everyone to idolize her, even if she really has no talents or reason to be in the limelight.
  36. The World Traveler Narcissist: She brags about places she’s been and makes up stories about the places she hasn’t been, but tells people she has. She has grandiose fantasies about how worldly she is.
  37. The Professor/Elite Intellectual Narcissist: She is brainy and seeks admiration for her intelligence. She uses her intellect to put others down and make them feel stupid.
  38. The Stage Mom/The Promoter: She lives her fantasies through you. She makes you do the things she wish she could [still] do and believes your achievements are her own.
  39. The Fashionista: She tells you how to dress and what not to wear—often when you’re already wearing it!
  40. Miss Manners: She still meticulously points out your etiquette failures– from how you eat to what family events you should attend.
  41. The Publicist: She brags about you to others but is excessively critical of you when you are alone.
  42. The Dr. Jekyl/Mr. Hyde Narcissist: She is nice in public, but mean under her breath or when alone.
  43. The Forever Young Narcissist: When did you become more mature than your mother? How old is she, really, emotionally?
  44. The Hot Mama Narcissist: Sexualized and distracted.
  45. The Lovesick Narcissist: Always chasing that ideal mate or trying to win the affection of her partner.
  46.  The Enabler Mom: She is too distracted with your rebel siblings’ problems or her partner’s addictive behaviors and seems to get a bit of a rush or power out of rescuing.
  47. The Social Butterfly: Everyone in town loves her, she is a generous host, but she can’t be bothered to make time for you.
  48. The Hypochondriac Narcissist: She believes something’s physically wrong with her, you should be checking in on her. And, if you don’t, as luck would have it, she unfortunately has something real going on every once in awhile. Or, it’s nothing a reputable doctor will confirm but she’s fighting off her cancer, leprosy, etc. with special treatments she’s managed to find through her own sheer will to survive.
  49. The Financially-Challenged Narcissistic: She just needs a little bit of help for this umpteenth self created crisis and she’s sorry she hasn’t paid you back yet for the last time you lent her money.
  50. The Martyr Narcissist: Her refrain is “How Can You Do This to Me?”  She tells you that you make her miserable, suicidal, isolated, or some other negative emotion. You are told that, in one way or another, you control her emotions and that if you would just do what she wanted she would be fine.
  51. The BFF (Best Friends Forever) Narcissist: You are her best friend, she doesn’t know what she would do without you, unless she had a better offer, in that case you’ll just have to wait until the next time she’s lonely. You are brought out like a doll when she wants attention then ignored when she doesn’t need it (but seriously, when doesn’t she need it?). This is also a description of what is experienced when someone is another’s “narcissistic supply.”
  52. The Expensive Narcissist: She has ruined your credit through manipulation to use your credit.
  53. The Criminal Narcissist: Some narcissists exploit their children or others through identity theft, mismanagement of trust funds, and fraudulent financial dealings. You may or may not have been the target of her crime, but she doesn’t see the rule of law applies to her. She may have Antisocial Personality Disorder, which is a pattern of manipulating, exploiting, or violating the rights of others. As if the narcissism wasn’t enough!

If you found this article helpful, I encourage you to read my free eBook The 7 Steps to Recovering from a Narcissistic Mother.

{ 7 comments… read them below or add one }

Elissa January 12, 2017 at 7:57 am

I am reaching out to ask for help, wisdom, advice….and perspective. I am the only child of an *extremely* narcissistic mother; I am 53, she is 81. Together, we have forged a lifetime of misery – she, because she is capable of nothing else; she is a soul-sucker who believes that her lot in life (no money, all smoke and mirrors, former model and tv singer) is thanks to her two (dead) husbands who were simply not enough “man” to take care of her needs both emotional and financial; and I, because I have let her. It was simply too hard to do anything else. I did manage to break away and move out of state, and marry; we have no children because, I have realized, that I already HAD a child: my mother. Still, we support her, paying many of her bills at the end of each month, often before our own, as a way to keep her at bay. When she turned 65 back in 2000, she chose not to carry a Medicare card because people would know how old she is. Instead, she signed up with a crappy Medicare HMO, thinking that she would simply live forever. She also did this because it was cheap, and, we discovered recently, was enabling her makeup addiction (32 tubes of lipstick in her medicine cabinet; 15 containers of powder in her vanity). On 12/3, she fell and broke one ankle and her other foot and had 2 surgeries and is now in rehab near my house. She gave me POA and we are moving all of her money into a pooled income trust so that she can get Medicaid when she gets home. Since her accident, I am sleeping 3 hours a night. I can’t eat without getting ill. I’ve lost weight (yay). My hands tremble. I am now her primary caregiver because she has no money and no one else to step in. Help. Any ideas, greatly appreciated. I’m utterly exhausted.


Tanja January 17, 2017 at 4:35 pm

Dear Elissa,

Thank you for sharing your problem here. It is very interesting to read about a totally different type of narcissist to the ones I met so far – among which one, my mother.
You told us you did not get a child b/c you already had your mother… still being a child. In a way narcissists are always a bit like a child, merely by all those abilities missing most people are just simply blessed with when born. Your mother however seems to be even much more a child. I can imagine your choice and I’m sorry for you having had to decide this way b/c of your mother. Myself, I also did chose to not get a child. I did so for another reason which was clear to me already in my early 20s happily. I was highly afraid of my mother’s DNA in terms of personality might be resembled in my child. What would I have done to the child then? How would I have coped with two of such nasty people so close to me? What would it have done psychologically to me still going through all the drama’s my mother created and went on creating (and still) and at the same time having to feed up a child showing similar of pretty much the same character?… I was too afraid that my child would be pretty much like my mother and therefore did not get one. Unfortunately – and happily at the same time. Happily b/c recently I did realize that her father, my grandfather, was a narcissist, too. The same holds for the mother of my father. So, among parents and grandparents out of 6 people 3 were/are narcissistic. On my mother’s side out of three beside her there is another sibling with at least quite some strong narcissistic traits. On my father’s side half of the children of his partens are suffering from narcissism. So,… I’m quite happy my mother lost her second child while up to my about 16th birthday I wished so much I would not be on my own… and I am very happy I never took the chance myself to eventually help another narcissist into this world. So, we both chose for the same, because of the same problem (a narcissistic mother), merely for different reasons within the spectrum of problems. You ask for ideas b/c you are ‘utterly exhausted’. You are functioning as her primary caregiver now.

Dear Elissa, please STOP with the roles turned around by her from about the begining. YOU are the child of her not vice versa. Foremost b/c YOU should be the most important to yourself, especially/even more b/c she as a narcissist never put you forward as you deserved. You ‘ve done all you can… even more… b/c now you are utterly exhausted. That means you already started to use up your basic battery quite well which never should happen. You know… this holds for every caretaker… you cannot take care of anyone else when you are not feeling well/being healthy yourself. First things first. YOU are first and then you’ve got a husband. You won’t do well if you go on sleeping that little. You might get even seriously ill. I do know quite some people for example who got a heart or brain infarction by too much stress, pressure, worries and also especially lack of sleep. If I were you I would let the revalidation clinic as well as your mother know that you are utterly exhausted and for the reasons I mentioned, that this way you cannot be of any help now, you first and only need to put attention to yourself… put the problem aside, it is not your problem… she is now in care there… let them look for a solution. You are ‘not fit to help’ at the moment. While recovering you might gain some distance to her and I’d wish for you that you will not go on the next years the way you did during the last years seemingly. Please take good care of yourself! Don’t go on treating yourself as you were treated by her. You do have a choice now. Why should you demand so much from yourself? You are just a human being, you got your own needs and at the moment you really showed here that your situation of health is alarming. You really need to react to that. I wish you all the best and hopefully you will soon feel better, stronger, sleep longer and… after regaining your health I do hope you’ll go on more distance with her. You might start with paying your own bills first before paying hers… ? 😉 YOU are important. You really need to be a bit egoistic now/thinking of yourself first and foremost. All the best!

(PS: I’ve so far only read your post – not one of the reactions you already got)


Bertie January 13, 2017 at 9:25 am

Hello Elissa,
My mom is now 90. I am one of five siblings, one deceased. The first four were born one year apart and then 8 years later, me. So, I felt like the only child most of the time. We have a NM with a lot of problems and a long, awful history with her as our mother. She has had health problems in the past, has made one of us POA in the past, is now living on limited social security right now, and depends on any or all of us to do things for her, constantly. And she is downright awful, as a human being, and especially as a mother.
Having said that, i do have some advice for you:
Don’t let her move in with you.
Call the “social services” agency within your county. Tell them your dilemma. I assume your mom is from a different state? I assume she would qualify for benefits only if she were to relocate to your state?
Your mom would qualify for some sort of housing based on her income. In my state, we have elderly apartment complexes (and they are nice!), nearby the hospital and nursing home. The normal rent would be something like $3000 a month for the “services” they provide. A dining room with their main meals prepared each day! A oven located on each floor (just one!). They don’t want baking/cooking done in the apartments. Someone is on staff 24/7 in case there are problems. Someone comes in and picks up their laundry once a week and returns it clean. We looked into this recently for our mother (who turned it flat down because she is still living in her home with us doing things for her). But the place would have simply taken her “checks” that she gets each month (social security and I don’t know what else … but it totaled about $1200. In turn, they would give her this apartment, she’d be getting meals, someone to check on her, living near health care, etc.). My mom would have been given $75 for the month (for incidentals). There were also buses that would have picked her up and brought her places (in town) for a very small fee. So, she’d have still “gotten around”. What else can you do? She can’t live with you.
You deserve to have a nice life! I realize you are “on the hook” with her. But it’s not fair for her life to ruin yours. If she lived in an apartment setting, she could visit with the other older folks and they’d have activities too. I think you should try to look out for yourselves as much as possible!! And I also understand how you are not eating/sleeping right now. I wouldn’t be either. I feel for you. You will probably be on edge until you find a solution for where she goes.


Bertie January 13, 2017 at 9:54 am

One last point: Our mom was in the ER this summer. The doctor asked if she was still living at home. Then he said to her … “You are looking down the barrel of living in an assisted-living facility. I would advise you move now … take the things you love with you… have some power over your future. If you get hurt, you are going to end up in a nursing home, for the rest of your life”.


Jane January 14, 2017 at 9:09 pm

Elissa, I’m not an expert but suggest checking with your mom’s doctor regarding her treatment plan and for referrals to community resources to help you and your Mom plan for long term care, if needed, as well as check with Medicaid for what they will or not will cover. Good luck and get some sleep!


Hilda January 19, 2017 at 11:06 pm

Hi, first of all let me tell you how much I appreciate that there is a website like this and you are doing an amazing work Michelle! Thank you. It’s people like you who give me hope.

I have a narcissistic mother, why else would I be here right? I have two older brothers too and all of us have been emotionally, verbally and mentally tortured by her. My brothers, now grown up – Eldest & the only other Good person who was like my parent, 32 managed to move out of the country *Dec 2016* at this stage of his life because she had financially crippled him and didn’t let him study/ build his career; my 2nd brother is the Golden Child, he is almost the exact same copy of her and so they get along far better but have ego clashes every other day.
Whereas for me, since I am 17 and under 18, with no income of my own or the means to get a part-time job, I am dependent on her absolutely. Our father is half paralysed and well, a vegetable (sorry but while he was okay he was very abusive too) and he doesn’t care about what’s going on. We live in a part of the world where the authorities won’t do anything, that is, Child Services or Abuse Centres are non-existent. I can’t depend on my eldest brother yet who is trying his hardest to make something of himself along with his wife & help me — obviously that’s going to take time.
I have a lot of patience and endurance power, believe me but she has been getting too much these days. At the smallest mistake from me, if I forgot something or wasn’t there at her beck and call, she makes a humongous deal out of it and threatens me that she won’t send me to school or take away the computer/ my phone/ room — something or the other and she actually does that from time to time.
I know the only way through this would have to be by being tactful but I am a teen for Heaven’s sake! I have no emotional attachment to her whatsoever because I realised, alone at 11 years old, that she is a narcissistic mother and it would be detrimental for me to be attached to her but what can I do now???


Hilda January 19, 2017 at 11:14 pm

I wanted to add that I love school, however it may be and whatever stupid classmates I may have, but it is my only safe haven. I love it there, I can be myself and I am way happier and feel like I could be somebody someday. I along with my eldest bro had hoped to do our best and just become independent so we can break off from her but it is so darn difficult…
I can’t stay in school forever, can I? In the afternoon, each day, I have to return to this place called ‘home’. I am probably one of the very few people who hate holidays, Sundays and the like. I have hopes and dreams and I know, however much she may put me down, that I have talent. I want to be a poet, painter and songwriter and be there for people who are in parts of the world where they can’t get help and just simply, be Me.

Thank you once again. I feel a tad bit better after typing all that.


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