Caring for an Aging Narcissistic Mother

by Michelle Piper

Caring for an aging narcissistic mother is hard.

As the child of a narcissistic mother, chances are that when your mother needs you most, your compassion has already been worn threadbare by her ever-changing demands long before she approached her frailest years.

You may have had to tend to her needs for as long as you can remember. She always came first, and certainly came before you. If her needs went unmet, it was followed by a narcissistic rage that could move mountains.

If you wanted or needed anything, it didn’t matter.

Unless, somehow, it served her needs.

But now she needs you due to the challenges of her age. Perhaps just as you’re barely meeting multiple demands of your own family, health or career.

You hoped your aging narcissistic mother’s drive to be the center of attention and make everything about her will subside, at least a little bit. Yet, this is often not the case.

Narcissism can worsen with age, especially when she may need your assistance to help her through her daily life due to illness or the general wearing out process. Caring for an aging narcissistic mother is a complicated process on both a physical and emotional level.

Paradoxically, an elderly narcissistic mother can pull at your heartstrings because you see she doesn’t have the capacity to manipulate or fight as she did in the past as her physical energy or mental ability decreases.

She may become less rigid due to the humbling nature of the aging process. When this happens, it may appear she has “mellowed with age.”

You may have a resurgence of feeling responsible for the lack of closeness with your narcissistic mother. If so, avoid focusing on guilt about, or longing for, a relationship with your mother that never worked as you’d so badly hoped.

An intimate relationship is beyond the will or capacity of a narcissist.

Sometimes, we can’t help our mother as much as we’d wish because we need to protect our own emotional safety. Perhaps you have long accepted you will not be truly cherished by your mother and she’s incapable of respecting your needs. Maybe all you can do is feel empathy from afar because you are too angry when you are close.

Regardless of your mixed feelings regarding your narcissistic mother, you may allow yourself to feel compassion, but not responsibility for, her needs or suffering. It is the opposite of narcissism, after all.

{ 44 comments… read them below or add one }

Debbie January 23, 2017 at 11:53 am

UPDATE FROM MY EARLIER POST….My mom still hasn’t gotten an appt. with her pulmonary dr…..really thought she would get in last week. I still haven’t left the state yet to see her as I am getting things in order around here and waiting for the Dr’s report. No matter what happens, my health and mental well-being are important. Just in the last 5 days I have had some serious melt-downs over her cruelness to me on the phone. After that 5 year separation I said that I will, under no condition, let her do this to me again. So, here’s my plan. First of all I haven’t decided to buy a one-way ticket or pre-determine my length of stay. Once I get there this is my plan. It’s a three-fold one with each piece carrying the same emotional weight.. #1 My mother’s condition…is she more humble in person or cruel or the worst ever? #2 My sister and brother despise each other, both with slight narcissistic personalities, both value money above anything or anybody. How sad. All of us together in one locations..who know what I will be like. Them fighting, me crying. #3 How am I feeling. So with that…..If ANY of these conditions starts to turn BAD…..I’m out of there and heading home. To never look back again WITH NO REGRETS. I truly envy anyone who has a normal mom…because a normal mom would not treat her children like this. I love to work with elderly people and often am rescuing abandoned cats or dogs. My advice. Take care of yourself and do something that allows you to get love in return. My current rescue effort with 8 cats warms my heart and theirs every day I am with them…..I saved their life and they saved mine.


Shelagh January 27, 2017 at 9:25 am

Good luck xxx


Marc May 27, 2017 at 4:41 am

Wow! I feel your pain. My mother-in-law, a narcissistic mother- in-law ALWAYS talking of money non-stop. Her vocabulary consists of: Doctor, Attorney, Lexus, Cadillac, prominent, prestige, $500,000 home, private schools etc. For the lack of profanity, it’s rather boring and self-centered. She’s one of 3 daughters; she’s never worked full time in her life. Her two sisters, one retired from Ford Motor credit and the other from Bank of America always worked full time. In fact, check this out, both of her sisters worked in high school so my mother-in-law could go to her Senior prom which the 2 sister’s paid for her dress! Deep seated problems with money, no formal education, married to a controlling man (deceased). Demands respect from her 2 daughter, one is exactly like her: self centered, manipulative, thinks she’s an Rockafeller on $14000/yr. My wife who is “normal” is my mother-in-law’s go to person for anything related to her: medical appointments, holidays, going to church etc. Ironic, how my mother-in-law has NEVER given my wife a dime yet her “cloned” daughter is always getting money for fear of suicide threats. Things exploded over Mother’s day as we had our daugther’s First Holy Communion service. My NMIL is telling me how much her female cousin is allowed to spend on monthly hair, nails etc. to the tune of $1000/month! I told her to change the topic as we where in Church! She proceeded to tell me where my wife and I where going to send our daughter to school, what kind of job I’m getting (transitioning out of Military) etc. Therefore, I told her this Christmas, DON”T expect us to drive 3.5 hrs on Christmas day to see her, rather the “cloned” daughter can entertain her. She exploded on me threatening NEVER to come back to my house ever again. She is stuck in an ever cycle of despair and materalisim yet refuses to go get clinical help. I’m suggesting my wife and I go to Marriage Counseling just to talk of this issue and I’m suggesting Limited Contact boundaries. I’m fearful she’ll poison our daughter’s way of thinking with her materialism and self-centeredness.

Military Officer dealing with Family Malarkey in Tennessee.


V February 1, 2017 at 10:48 pm

I recognise so many of these stories, finding out about narcissistic mothers recently was like a light bulb moment for me, and explained so much. Finally, it’s her not me! I’m nearly 60 and am the only surviving child of an 90 year old narcissist. My late father was her enabler. My sibling died in childhood, and was the “golden child”, who of course is for ever perfect being dead! I’ve often thought that she thinks the wrong child died. I’ve been supporting my elderly mother’s emotional needs all her life, and now she’s elderly and frail, everybody expects me to support her, it’s so difficult trying to explain I have never had a normal mother, when others see her as being a “sweet old lady”. I live a hundred miles away from her, but she carries on as if it’s just around the corner, she’s been a hypochondriac all her life, and it’s even worse now she’s old. Her favourite tactic is to get someone else to ring me, and tell me she’s ill, and she’s going into hospital, so I have no choice but to come and see her again. I visit every 2 weeks anyway, she’s been sent to hospital so many times, for it to be declared a “panic attack”. She has no guilt about wasting healthcare resources, and none about getting me running down the motorway again, because that was the aim of the game, attention, and then she can ring her friends to get even more attention for being “ill”. Her GP won’t take responsibility for her as she’s in her 90’s so sends her to hospital for the slightest issue. I’m a nurse and she thinks she can pull the wool over my eyes, one day she’ll be crying down the phone, I’m so lonely, I’m so depressed, the next day if a friends visited, her ” depression” has mysteriously gone! She forgets which symptom she’s complained of the day before, so I can often catch her out.She’s a fraud and a phoney, everything is always about her, if I’m ill, she will always tell me how worried she is about “my problem” so I never tell her anymore, as she’s incapable of empathy. She’s recently been hospitalised for pneumonia, and at one point wasn’t expected to live, I feel really guilty writing this, but it would have been a relief if she’d died, she survived, and my endless torture continues. I’m fortunate to have a good supportive husband, who knows how difficult it is, but doesn’t fully get it, when I say I want to go “no contact” he’s says she’s your mother, and she’s old, you can’t do that! He had normal supportive parents so doesn’t quite get it, he still thinks one day she’ll feel remorse, but she’s a narcissist, so it’ll never happen. I say that if your husband is abusive, you’re actively encouraged to divorce them, but if it’s your mother, society seems to say you have to put up with their bad behaviour because a mother’s role is sacrosanct, even if they’re a monster! She tells me constantly that she loves me, as she thinks this will keep me running, but there’s no love there, her hugs feel as cold as ice. My mum has said terrible things about me but conveniently “forgets” these outbursts . She recently told my husband I was always useless, and I’ve only achieved anything due to her efforts! I have a university degree, and have been a senior nurse for years – my mother has no academic qualifications, and I’ve achieved what I have despite her. The only reason I still support her is for me not her, I guess I’m trying to prove I’m not like her, and also all that grooming has paid off, I’m still that child who wants to please her, even though I know it’ll never happen.


patricia February 17, 2017 at 1:27 pm

i went no contact my heart breaks for you


Judy April 3, 2017 at 1:42 pm

I am so sorry for you, but I feel like I am reading my own words. Blessings to you. I understand what you are going through.


Lucy April 6, 2017 at 4:05 am

I too take care of an 80year old mother. Your story mirrors mine. Thank you so much for sharing. I have been told many times what a “sweet lady” she is when I know the truth. Your words really help. Take good care – of yourself.


Sofia May 4, 2017 at 6:59 am

I am so sorry for all of you.

My narcissistic mother is 94 an I am 65. Thank you for your words, you are helping me to support this neverending story and give me the power to set boundaries every day.


Sofia May 4, 2017 at 7:00 am

I am so sorry for all of you.

My narcissistic mother is 94 an I am 65. Thank you for your words, you are helping me to support this neverending story and give me the power to set boundaries every day.


Crabapple May 20, 2017 at 7:17 pm

Ditto! I, too, am a nurse, youngest of 4 and the only daughter , Mom is 91 and enabler dad died 5 years ago. She has sucked me dry and I am numb to her, and perform all tasks like a robot. I do not like having to turn on the ‘numb’ switch but do so to survive. Her needs will never be met.. it is her disorder and finally I am out to
preserve my health. I view my visits and tasks as ‘a job’ and there is a financial reward to it. But I can’t let her negative emotion drag me down. Be strong. Take long walks. Stay rested. You did not sign up to be her daughter.. it chose you.


Gayle Holden June 26, 2017 at 3:20 pm

My narc mil is 95 and has had her hooks into my husband for over 60 years. She is also a hoarder of the most severe type. Her golden child daughter (a clone of her) died 5 years ago from leukemia and her “lost” youngest child, a son, is autistic. He was good for pity and for money. She has spent her whole life baiting and manipulating my husband and he responded thinking good deeds would win him favour . Wrong. He took his mother to court 5 years ago and became legal guardian of his brother. 6 months ago his mother was hospitalized and my husband was finally able to move his brother into a nice group care facility with a private suite for him. He has POA and is disposing of the hoarding mess and preparing the property for sale. My mil is refusing to leave the hospital for long term care even though she needs 24/7 care so they’re stuck with her. Our 30 year marriage is in tatters and I don’t know if we will ever recover from this decades long assault. My advice: sever all contact with narcissistic people, whether they are family members or marriage partners or friends. Starve them of their blood supply. They suck you dry and they cause grief and harm to everyone they come into contact with.


Glo August 3, 2017 at 7:36 am

Wow! I am 64 and my N mom just turned 95. I went no contact 2 years ago. Best thing I ever did. Too toxic for words. I wish I could recoup all the time and money I spent caring for that selfish non-motherly woman. It’s all about narcissistic supply. The more you hurt, the better they feel…

J May 30, 2017 at 7:33 am

They live so long. Because they have no guilt. Sad that you were not relieved and the abuse continues after the grave, no rest assured. She’ll leave it all to the golden child or a grandchild she may never see, and if you work your fingers to the bone taking care of her, she leaves you nothing, because the scapegoat gets nothing in the end. I have wanted to run away into the wild because of my NM and my EF. To never be heard from again. In my dreams, it was the only way to escape.


Christine June 19, 2017 at 1:59 am

Oh my goodness this is me and my mother . I feel your pain . Its relentless . My mother recently had pneumonia and i felt the same way too . Its never ending .


New Me November 7, 2017 at 5:57 pm

I am feeling your pain. We are almost the same story with my mother. She is 80 now and I am 45. She’s gotten so worse lately because of no contact I decided to do for over 6 months now. She’s thousand miles away but she uses narc flying monkeys to get to me. Last week they told me she got lost and already found in another city. I reacted a little about it. But did not do anything. I did not call her or my sister-in-law who is looking after her. So when they knew I didn’t react on their bait, they created another story. Now, she’s in the hospital. The narc flying monkey who gave this message really got into my nerve. It’s so obvious that it is only the money they wanted from me. I got a little bit of meltdown dealing this message. But I ignored her emails so they won’t get anything from me. I let my anger out by talking with my husband about the issue. My mother is quite sick now and quite frail. I know she’s not going to change and will never give me the kind of love I deserve as her daughter. But as part of my healing I am accepting all that. If I am going to help her in any way as she deteriorates, it is my compassion towards her as my mother. Sounds pleaser but a deep empathy towards her past and bad upbringing gives a space in my heart to hold on for a little while until this lost soul passes this life. The spiritual aspect of my life taught me some hopes after this life. I keep the boundaries between her and her flying monkeys though to keep my sanity. It is not easy most of the time but people who have been through with all these experiences prior us and professionals have shed some light and continue sharing their knowledge how to combat this silence illness will definitely lighten a burden on our shoulder.


ALicia November 12, 2017 at 8:57 am

Your post caught my attention. I’m sorry that you have to endure a NP mother. You are the child who survived, that is wonderful and it should be celebrated! Hooray!

It is wonderful to be able to participate with this site and the people who get it!

I’m going 3 1/2 years of dealing with the discovery that my mother is Narc. I’m not an only child, I feel like I am, I have 2 siblings who I believe to also be Narcs. Narc Land as I call it. My sister has cut me out of her life again and continues to manipulate money out of my Narc mother (but don’t feel bad for my narc mother, because my narc sister pays dearly). They have been doing this dance forever, but now I have stepped back from the drama they want to pull me into. My narc brother was the scapegoat and is mostly absent from the family. He is the reining Narc over his poor family.

My Father died 3 1/2 years ago. My Narc mother is a widow and boy does she play the “Poor Widow card”. She even said to me “I really get alot of attention when I play the “Poor Widow”.” At 53, I’m still shocked at her cruelty and non empathy. The “Sweet old lady” comes to mind. No one seems to understand that she is behind a mask and that a monster lives behind that mask.

I believe that my Narc mother belittled and abused my wonderful Father to an early grave. After his death she called me 10+ times a day with problems and health issues that were fake or manipulated. Before my Father’s death she may have called me once per 2 months. My narc mother is a retired Nurse, I no longer tell her about health issues. I have chronic Kidney stones. She is always calling me to see if I have kidney stone pain. If I says yes, she actually giggles.

Now my Narc mother of 75 has a 90 year old boyfriend. He is a nice man, that is what my narc mother needs, so she can feed off him. This is terrible, but he keeps her out of my hair. He is 90 and she is 15 years his junior and I know this relationship won’t last. I know that when her boyfriend is not here anymore, she will be ever worse X 10. I dread the day this happens, I will want to run. It is like waiting for the other shoe to drop. While my Husband is supportive and listens to my dealings with my narc mother, he says I can’t go NO CONTACT because I am her co-trustee of her estate. Really I don’t care about the estate, I worry about her care.

I have worked hard these past years for low contact and gray rock. In caring for her when she needs it, I will be putting myself right back into Her hell (Narc land). V, this is were the grooming comes in and you have given me a glimpse of the future with my Narc mother. I agonize over this… Does anyone have advice? There is no way she can live with me and my siblings say the same. She will go into a home. The more people (aides) that are involved in her life creates more drama. Drama which I will be dragged into. I keep saying to myself, “Enjoy the moment” but it is hard.

I also struggle with jealousy of people with normal mothers. The Holidays are coming and it is difficult to watch all the love on TV. I want to go into a cave for 2 months.

May peace be with all of you


Youcef February 5, 2017 at 2:29 pm

Hi everyone,

My narcissistic mother is today 58 and I’m 29, I spent all my childhood being her confidant, with her all the time complaining to me about my father, my grandmother, the neighbors, etc etc.. she depicted herself always as a victim and a perfect person surrounded by bad people.

And I had no normal childhood with a caring mother who oriented me, all I was supposed to do was listen to her complaining and be her confidant, comfort her, agree with her that all those people (especially my father) were bad, etc.

Today whenever I meet her she would systematically use a very weak voice, claim that she is exhausted, that life is so hard (to make me feel guilty of not being with her), etc, then when her lover comes her voice suddenly becomes normal, she no longer looks exhausted, etc.. then I would understand that she is making her habitual manners of playing the victim in front of me.

She takes pleasure in looking like a victim and having people’s compassion, but I no longer blame her, her own mother was a narcissist who ignored her and she couldn’t have her attention unless she played the victim, so she kept that pattern during her whole life, even with her little children, seriously impacting their lives without realizing it.


Lucy August 15, 2017 at 11:48 am

Thank you for your words. My 80 yr old mother will be talking to me normally at grocery…as soon as someone is near, she stoops down,puts on a weak voice,then tells strangers how I “never help her.” Most of the time people believe her and I am a “bad daughter.” I found you cannot do this without friends or a good therapist. The resentment will eat you up.


Justme February 7, 2017 at 11:40 am

What a gift to have found this place! My VN mom has just moved to my town, and I have began to doubt my own sanity. Like some of you, my sister committed suicide. I am the only one left and I am beginning to understand the struggle she caused my sister.


Justme February 7, 2017 at 11:58 am

Having relocated to my town, we’ve done the establishing new dr routine. Within first visit new Prmary Care recommends cognitive evaluation. We went to one appointment where she had to answer a long list of questions which she was noncompliance and ended up mad but completed. Only to be told she had to come back two more visits to correctly assess her? Needlessly to say she went home and canceled.
This was a psychologist what kind of dr do I need to get a diagnosis? I have POA, but I’m not sure how much real power that has.


Grendle March 7, 2017 at 4:54 am

Hi Debbie, thanks for your reply. I’m so sorry about your situation. Reading your post gave me a little hope.NC means no contact. My mum is 82 and now has Parkinson’s along with numerous other illnesses. I have just gone NC after they abandoned me after I had my op and I had to get social services to help me. My son has also started emotionally abusing me so I’ve also had to cut ties with him as the continued abuse is affecting my recovery from my operation. I also have a sister who I haven’t spoken to for over a year cos she’s enmeshed in the ‘blame and shame’.My ‘parents’ and my son now collude together to find ways to make my life more difficult. I am devastated at this situation, I love my son dearly(he’s 25) and I can’t get my head round this new abuse. I’m not on Facebook but we could swap email if you like. You do NOT owe your abusive family anything, don’t let anyone abuse you anymore, it’s like slowly being murdered.I’m only in the early stages of NC and it is tearing me apart. I’m living from one hour to the next.When I tell anyone my story they cannot understand why my family would treat me this way. They’ve put my life at risk for the last time, all of them. Thanks for reading Debbie, I hope you’re ok. Wendy


Grendle March 7, 2017 at 5:06 am

Hi Debbie, thanks for your reply. NC means no contact. I’ve already written this once but it didn’t post. I’m sorry to hear about your situation with your mum. I thought mine had mellowed with age but I was wrong. When I came out of hospital after the operation I was promptly abandoned and left to fend for myself, by all my family incl my son. I couldn’t walk properly so I had to get social services to help me. Since then I’ve gone no contact with all 3 of them, including my son, which has broken my heart, but he is now being so emotionally abusive I couldn’t stand it any longer. So I’ve been ‘managing ‘ alone, not very well cos this operation takes months to heal. I’m often suicidal due to years of abuse and now because my ‘family’ abandoned me. I’m only 2 weeks into NC so far so I’ll let you know how I progress. My ‘family’ have put my life at risk for the last time . I hope things are ok with you, my mum sounds a lot like yours; everything judged by how it looks and what it cost. Wendy


Alex March 19, 2017 at 7:56 am

My mother had a stroke at a very early age. I was only 13 and became my mother’s caregiver. I had to assist in all her daily needs and even had to help her shower. I hated every second of it. Those days still haunt me and I often feel guilty. I am 42 now and over these years I have realized my mother is a narcissist. Always expecting me to take care of things without regard for my own family life and career. She will pull and pull until she gets her way. She always expected me to take off work to take her to doctor appointments when my dad could have taken her or she could have taken herself. She still drives. She would say my dad could not take her because he had to work. She did not find me being a single parent to three kids and a full time job as an excuse not to take her. One day I just stopped and didn’t do it anymore. Then she would be passive aggressive in very subtle ways. She eventually moved on to bother my brother. My brother had to take off work to take her because my dad had to work. As if my brother didn’t have to work. All those years she could have driven herself. But she enjoys being catered to and taken care of. Two years ago my father had a massive stroke and now he is more ill than she is. I believe she is jealous that she is no longer the sickest one. But I see that now my father is behaving more like my mother with all the attention seeking. Constantly calling me to go see them and sometimes I do not want to use my free time to go there where there is misery and complaining and negativity. My mother has driven almost all family away because she is passive aggressive when they do not do things her way. She enjoys getting ill so she can go to the hospital and get a break from caring for my dad. Then she wants me or my brother to take care of them both and I do not understand that. Can she not see that we have to work and have car payments and mortgage payments and kids to take care of? She does not care as long as she gets her way. It is a constant tug of war with this woman and she does not regard anything or anyone but herself and her needs. I have recently had to go no contact with them because of her trying to guilt me into something I was not comfortable doing… Like caring for them. I get anxiety and flashbacks and my blood pressure goes up just thinking about it. It takes me back to when I was 13 and I had to carry so much responsibility caring for her. I cannot do it again and I do feel guilty sometimes. But other times I just feel angry and the expectations. She has voiced very clearly that it is my brother’s and my duty to care for them now and I just do not like being forced into things. I could not deal with the 20 calls a day so I called social services on them and went no contact. Social services asked them to consider putting my father in a nursing home since he is bed ridden and it is taking a toll on my mother since she is also handicapped, but they both refuse. Instead they just leave us voicemails with passive aggressive comments like “I hope my phone call doesn’t cause you stress blah blah blah.” I have gone no contact before but only for a few weeks or so, but this time I am going on 3 months. I wrote her a letter to explain to her why I did so and because I wanted her to know how I felt and I know she read it because she has left my brother a voicemail with passive aggressive comments referencing “what has your sister told you about me”. He also went no contact at the same time I did because he had just had enough. She became desperate for attention with neither of us answering her calls that she came to my house and started banging on my door and ticking her keys to my windows. She was not just knocking, but banging. Then ringing the door bell over and over again for about 15 minutes until she finally gave up and left. Then she moved on to my brother and she did the same thing to him. She disrupted his peace and sleep at midnight and again at 3 am with banging and continuously ringing the door bell and leaving voicemails that she had to talk to him and “what is your sister saying about me”. She is not normal and I cannot handle that stress at this stage in my life. She will not dictate to me as she did when I was a child what I should or should not do. She cannot make my life decisions. I am done.


Grendle March 25, 2017 at 4:12 am

Hi Debbie, I’m so sorry to hear about your mum. I don’t think us daughters of narcissists know quite how to react in response to the death of our ‘mother ‘.. I suppose it’s like others have said that we don’t just grieve for our mums but we also grieve for the family we never had and that we deserved. I’m in the process of trying to have a little contact with my son, my mum and her husband have sort of appropriated an apology but it’s, again, empty and they’ve tried to blame it on me for ‘overreacting ‘ but I’m standing up for myself this time and I don’t really care about them now I realise how destructive they are to my mental health.on the positive side, I have a new rescue cat who wants to love me and be with me all the time. The only social media I’m on is Twitter, my name is Wendy Nicola Cain on it so you can contact me if you like.
I’m so sorry for your loss and you are in my thoughts x


M's April 20, 2017 at 1:12 pm

Does anyone else have a NM who also has Munchausen’s? This has been a life mind bombs and emotional torment.


Christina October 11, 2017 at 5:00 pm

Oh yes, my 81 year old mother has had one foot in the grave and another on a banana peel since I was about 7..well maybe before that but I would not have been aware.
She is extremely selfish emotionally and some how sees herself as the victim…all the time! But, refuses any reasonable help, will not use prescribed treatments. Has laid in bed in pain ( that could be controlled!) has eaten her way up to 400 lbs, hasn’t had a full bath since May 2016 and refuses proper bed baths…thinking that baby wipes do the trick. Yes, she stinks! Part of this is poor cognitive functioning brought on by age but the Princess behaviour is just same old. My Father has Chronic Heart Failure and maybe 2 years left to live – at best. He has shrunk to 135 lbs and she still expects him to pull her out of bed to get to the john! Dr’s have red flagged them as in need of immediate Assisted Living but she has blown it once already with her attitude. We are taking one more crack at another place this week…but none of the family is hopeful. I always knew she was something of a drama queen medically and a selfish …but she is putting our Father’s life at risk with her twisted agenda.


Bertie May 26, 2017 at 12:23 pm

After 25 years, I moved back closer to where I grew up. My elderly mother still lives alone in the same home I grew up in. She refuses to “move into town”. She has several, significant health problems, and has had, for many years. One day, I get a phone call from her. She speaks to me in a calm manner and says that “The ambulance is here, and they are taking me to the ER. I don’t feel right”. I call one of my brother’s. The two of us race to the town they are taking her. Naturally, we are thinking she may be dying.
We get there to watch her walk out of the ambulance and walk calmly down the hall to the ER. She does not have a medication list with her. Nothing. The ER doctor has never seen her before. I run around and call her regular doctor’s office and get her med list faxed to them ASAP. The ER doctor is not happy to have her as a patient and cannot find anything wrong with her. He tells her she should not be living alone and should not be driving anymore. She is to spend the night with one of the kids. Naturally, I get her. I ask my brother if he would please go and get her little dog. Nope, he will not do that.
I ask if her brother (who lives 2 miles away) will go and take the little dog. Nope, he will not do that. And so, with Mom in tow, we go and get her little dog and she goes to spend the day and night with us. The next day, I take her to her regular doctor. The doctor begins the appointment by saying to her that she can “kick me out of the room” if she wishes. I am standing there thinking, what the heck? (I later figure out it’s all about the privacy laws … but more importantly … I find out that Mom has bad mouthed us kids to anyone who will listen. Obviously, the doctor too). In the weeks that follow, I speak on the phone on a few occasions to mom’s home health care nurse (who goes and sees her at her home every couple of weeks). The nurse informs me that my mom has not given consent for anyone to know anything about her and she cannot tell us anything, or really, talk to us at all. The nurse informs me that she will try and get my mom to give permission for them to talk to at least one of us kids about her.
Once again, and for many weeks, I tried to be of assistance to my mom.
Eventually, I just plain stopped.
My mom still lives alone. My mom still drives a car. We know nothing about her condition.
Why did I write about this? I guess just because the blog is about “Caring for Your Aging Parent”.
I guess the only other thing to add is that my mom is like a “hot potato” with regard to the other siblings. NO ONE wants to help. EVER.


Tanya stewart June 25, 2017 at 7:06 am

Hi, my sister and me really need some help with our narcissist mother. She is now 85 and is struggling with walking etc. She is constantly calling for help and claiming that her and my enabling father are ill. My father is ill. He has prostate cancer, but we’re now convinced that she is not telling the truth about what the doctors are saying and is making out things are worse than they are. She recently claimed to have fallen and my sister spent 4 hours in the hospital with her only to find out there was no evidence to support this. This weekend i have been on call to take my doctor to hospital for an urgent blood transfusion but when i call the hospital they know nothing about it. I would be really grateful to hear from anyone who has been in a similar situation and how they dealt with it. Both my sister and me are concerned we will end up ignoring them when they really do need help. Thanks. Tanya


Helen July 21, 2017 at 2:35 pm

Encouraging to see others in this boat. My MIL was so lovely, so it’s especially hard for my partner to understand how much damage my own narc. mother has and can do. I went “no contact” when my kids were growing up – for their sake and mine – but when her husband died I felt sorry for her and was worried that she would kill someone while driving. So i moved her near us (across the country) and now back in the soup. I try to see this new chapter as an opportunity to set boundaries and affirm who I have, but as has been said so many times before, she can look relatively normal to others. Feel like I was damned if I did (non contact) and damned if I don’t (having her here). My mother also used health issues and the loss of her car (a joint decision) as a way to get attention but is wearing us out. I took my partner to a family counselor so we could strategize ways to set limits with her, and it has helped a little but I do resent how draining the constant need for vigilance around her is. In retrospect, the best thing I did was “no contact” for 12 years. It gave me the space to heal and fortify, which I need for this final chapter. I remind myself that there is no way to make her happy and/or better, there is only self-protection. The trick is to take care of yourself without guilt, and that means getting help from others. TTFN


charlie October 13, 2017 at 7:48 pm

My mother is 85 and I am 63. I have finally figured out what is wrong with “me” . I had never heard of narcissistic people/mother. I have taken care/mothered my mother all my life. She is healthier than me. I have chronic pain issues migraines with a Medtronic Pain Pump to help me survive the day. This is so overwhelming!!! I am trying to go no contact. Then she texts me that “your uncle died.” My brother is in 4th stage renal cancer age 66. He was given less than 1 1/2 years this past April 2017. She has been texting me that we need resolve this for his sake so “its not awkward when the family gets together.” I assume she means his death. He understands. I could go on and on. I am going to another psychiatrist this week. I will once again try to heal as she shreds me! I pray he can help me.


Sandy October 14, 2017 at 8:48 pm

Agh its so… whats the word… coming here and seeing yet another discovering this “secret”. All of our lives we were made to feel less than… learned what harm can be done to us simply because we were born to them.
Now that mine is in a nursing home… finally… now I don’t have to be concerned when I would phone and she didn’t answer. Morning, noon, or night.
Fantasizing what it would be like to be able to just walk away, as I am locked in to caring for her, a story I won’t dredge up here again.
What is bizarre is that now that she’s got care 24/7, I should be able to finally feel the freedom I’ve been aching for. The
40+ hrs/wk woman is now taking up much less of my time. I’m years behind in paperwork, keeping the house up, and of course up to my eyeballs in debt… should be a given that I can now complete it quickly and without all those interruptions from a cranky old woman.
I feel overwhelmed at times, not willing or able to do much besides nap inbetween staring at the tv. I don’t know what happened to my life.
And of course– the cranky old bat, now that she’s settled in some, is, according to all the staff reports, “the nicest, sweetest dear of a woman”. How nice. I’d love to tell them of course she’s nice… she’s always managed to be that woman in front of others.
So now I’m supposed to keep smiling, pretend that all is well (it is now, isn’t it??!), and try and forget? all those decades of emotional hammering and sabotage… nothing but smiles and cuddles. I’m so sick of it I could puke.
I’d visit her less often than I do but I don’t trust her. She’s very anxious (or at least she has been) to give her valuables and money away… to others. She doesn’t wish to leave me with a thing.
Its real hard, this caring for an aging narcissistic mother. Am hoping its the hardest thing I’ll have to do in my life. Is it wrong to wish its not for much longer.
And why does the one comment somewhere in here saying they live a long time because they have no guilt, keep sticking with me… how much longer… not a wish I ever would’ve dreamt thinking of making. Harsh.


SA October 19, 2017 at 12:01 pm

Everyone, I have been thru so many of these things with my NM. You are speaking my experiences.

Sandy, you sound EXHAUSTED and STILL IN SHOCK at how things have gone. I’ve lost many years to such inertia / lack of energy as well. Then we feel nuts and guilty for this!!!
I don’t know if this applies to you — please ignore if it doesn’t — i have discovered that i myself have a mild form of bipolar disorder. This explains a lot of my coping struggles and my inconsistent behaviour in handling for my own matters. I blamed it on my trauma and on ongoing problems and on other people. Maybe the problems / people were triggers for my roller coaster ups and downs, but i still needed meds to be “level headed” myself. Emotionally, practically and even intellectually to handle complex thought processes and high stress. I dont know if you may find benefit in seeing a doc for some assistance in lifting your mood and coping level. We do get physically depleted from abuse!!

Back to everyone — We all feel alone in our own bizarre lives, but we do understand each other’s struggles and pain. Our friends and relatives who don’t deal with the same things may give us advice that is well-meant but so very off-target because of the bizarre N abuse. Please forgive your friends and please do not expect yourself to do what you know cannot be done. I have tried, tried, tried and given up on getting them to understand. I have had to go NO CONTACT with friends and relatives to keep that aspect of drama under control in my life. Very hurtful but better than constant torture from the contact. And the unnecessary guilt destroys even lovely friendships as long as we stay in contact.

Praying for you all …


Andrea October 22, 2017 at 2:49 am

My aged mother IS a narcissist. I was her scapegoat, out of five children. Nothing I’ve ever done is right or good, nor am I a likable and worthwhile person, to hear her tell it. The destruction in my life has been huge because of this. Severe depression and anxiety and a sense of not fitting anywhere. Her favorite manipulations include blackmail of anyone who might be my friend and now isn’t as a result; developing a spy system in her large family where every word I speak to these ‘helpers’ is recorded and played back to her like I am the animal in the barn, or the main character in George Orwell’s ‘1984’. Turns out Big Brother was a narcissist, too! Hah! And the rule there was ‘no love’ too. There has never been a word of encouragement; nor has she ever been remotely trustworthy. Nice, eh? I went no contact several years ago and come back occasionally at others’ request, to help her in her last years. More insults and sneers and innuendo that reduce me to tears later. The only positive thing, but very sad, too: the other children are running for the hills. Now that I am not there, they all bear the brunt of her incredibly vicious character and they stay away more than they would if it were otherwise. Sad for all concerned. Last time I saw her, she was still snarling, but sitting in a wet pool of her own urine, unwashed and miserable.


julia October 26, 2017 at 3:33 am

My Mom is in her mid 70’s and has become very ill; she needs me now more than ever before. I am 53, depressed, overweight, sleepless, & agitated; I have a serious case of PTSD. She neither likes nor respects me but calls whenever she needs to be rescued, txts me repeatedly daily, makes bizarre false accusations to my kind and long suffering wife, and assails us angrily until we are forced to retreat from her -wherever and whenever her rants occur; she has very abrupt mood swings. She is a non- compliant patient who does not tell medical professionals the truth. She is passive aggressive, manipulative, angry, & distant to my wife and I. It seems she has been this way forever but gets worse every yr. In the past, she has said and done some dreadful things to us- & to my bro. & his wife. He moved far away to escape her.
Yet, my wife and I do home repairs, help with bills, do errands, take her places she might like to go, & try to be kind to her- because we are decent people & she is my mother. There’s nothing in it for us. She can’t stand either of us & has told us so.
She is nice to her friends and to complete strangers, but tells me privately that her friends are alcoholics,disgusting, hateful people, etc. The way she treats my wife cuts me to the core. I can no longer stand to go near her because I have no defenses against her hurtful behaviors. I want to move away, but I feel guilty & I feel sorry for her.
I have LET her negatively affect my marriage and my health for 24 yrs. & if I don’t stop, I think that the stress she causes us could kill us both. The ONLY wise and correct thing I did do was prevent her from having ANY contact with our child. She does not know her & pretends she does not exist. So, in our real life as a family we are invisible to her. As I am writing this, I think how INSANE it is of me to have maintained a relationship with someone whom I knew was too toxic to be around my kid. OMG.
I have not seen her for weeks, since her latest episodes of anger directed toward us. After we sat 9 1/2 hrs w/ her in the emergency rm. & I stayed overnight to be sure she was safe, she screamed us out of her house, and the hospital rm,. for no discernible reason. She enlisted her friend & my bro. & her gossip mill to stir up More Drama.
Now, she is manipulating my bro. to bring his wife & take care of her. His wife has begged him not to leave her alone with her. She is very deferential to my mother & my mother does dreadful things to her, like throw away her food and clothing when they stay with her; she thinks it’s funny. I think it is dusgustingly cruel and childish. It is easier for me to see & feel when she is mistreating them, or my wife, than when she is being mean to me. I guess I am inured to it after so many years.
They are going to let her destroy their young lives- just like I did. She is trying to use her ‘estate planning’ to pit us against ea. other.
I feel lost in the fog of my ceaseless efforts and her concommitant rejections & unkindnesses.
I have carefully read every comment on this blog, and I wonder why I didn’t sit down & google, “narcissistic mother” about 2 decades ago?
Thx for sharing your stories, it really helped me to read them.


S October 26, 2017 at 9:55 pm

I’m very new to this, even realising my mother is a narcissistic has been fairly recent. We have managed to get on superficially for a year but now my sister is dying she has begun to ring me purely to be vicious. My brother died 11 years ago and I experienced the most brutal rage where she said unthinkable things and even broke my wrust. She then told the family I’d made it up and they didn’t speak to me for 2 years.. I cannot go through this again but as the only surviving child I will be demanded to. I can’t disappear but need advice on putting some boundaries in place. For example I listened to 2 hours of her slagging off my late father on Sunday, then a tirade of how I was grieving wrong. And the usual line when I try to express my feelings ‘life is hard, what about the people in Syria? I could never tell her her faults, but I need to explain that after her aggressive phone call I don’t want to spend time with her. She sees it as my job when losing her children to take her abuse. She says that’s what you do to someone you love and it’s normal. I don’t want to shatter her world but I need to say I won’t take this again. She will then run to all the family to say I’ve been nasty. I didn’t realise until today that they believe her. I’m recovering from addiction and have only just understood the impact she has on me, I am also going to lose my sister, which means nothing in my mum’s view, only her loss counts. I want to scream at her buy the backfire will be hell. Please help if you can!


Ang November 8, 2017 at 6:11 am

I am a survivor of a narc Mother. Although , I have lost a Sister, two brothers and a father due to the mental illness of my mothers doing. they were over taken by drug abuse and alcohol abuse, I am holding her solely responsible for their early departure from this world. for years i thought that there was something wrong with me. I felt unloved, guilty , not good enough and I know my brothers and sisters felt the same, … I now know it was not me, but my mother who was a genius master manipulator who could turn one person against another so easily. Mind blowing , neglect and psychological abuse and able to make it look like it was a brother or sister who was actually doing the abuse. When in reality it was her doing this behind the scene, she would lie , steal and cheat. but make herself look so innocent . not a person would believe me that she would do any thing to hurt anyone else. but so far from the truth. i could write a book and i am sure it would be a best selling book. Crazy shit that she did. still to this day she believes she is a good person. Never see this mother cry. not even at her own daughter and sons funeral. No emotions. but she loves to provoke emotions from others. like anger, sadness , grief. ect its like she gets a thrill from it.


Kim October 29, 2017 at 8:53 am

Hello to all on the road to recovery,
I too, have an aging mother. She is now in a nursing home with all facilties intact. After banishing me for 15 years, she resumed contact with me-after pressure from my brother.
She was the loving, sweet and supportive mother I remembered off and on from my past.
However, after a few months of caring for her, taking her shopping and helping her in any way I could, she started demeaning remarks and even said ” I thought we were on the same level, but I can see you are back to mother and child” in an email titled Friends.
I have now been cut-out again after I spent a week with my brother, (golden child).
I was so angry with myself for falling into the trap. I was a nurse and helping people and showing love comes easily to me. I don’t believe in grudges and ran willingly back to her; I suppose trying to have my mother love me. I never commented on her rude remarks or insults because I know that would please her and give her reason to blame me. I left the nursing home after most visits feeling deflated and would cry on the way home.
The holidays are coming up and I feel sad. I had my mother back in my life, and now it’s over again. She is 88, and just as mean-spirited toward me as years ago. I am having a great deal of trouble understanding that my mother doesn’t love me. She is loving and complimentary to everybody else, even strangers. She oozes love to my siblings.
So, I don’t believe that these people mellow or change behaviour with aging. She has had a grudge against me for many years, without reason. I had struggled for years to understand what I had done wrong. Reading these posts has given me some insight.
I must begin grieving for a relationship that was one-sided and devoid of love by her.
Thank you all for your posts and sharing your experiences.


Anonymous November 7, 2017 at 6:02 am

I realized about 5 years ago that my mil was a narcissist. Prior to that I just could not figure out the wierd hold she had over my husband who is now 62. For 22 years I have watched her manipulate him, turn brother against brother, daughter in law against daughter in law & it just doesn’t end. She is 88 years old now. When I met my husband her husband had just passed away and her ‘plan’ was for her son to take care of her for the rest of her life. She owns a farm and the rest of her son’s told her to sell up. She persuaded my husband (who is not the ‘golden child’) that he should be there for her on the property until she dies and he will inherit it all. He agreed and she paid out lump sums in cash to the other siblings. 22 years on and this 88 year old has given her 62 year old son a run-around for years. She is constantly desperately ill – has had ‘strokes’, ‘ heart attacks’ and every illness imaginable – none of these confirmed by innumerable specialists and doctors, who can find absolutely nothing wrong with her. At one stage to took to bed for over 5 years. During this period my husband and I took care of her every need. Her younger son (the golden child) came upon hard times and him and his family moved in with her (into her house on the farm) – she promptly changed her will and gave him half the property. She then, unbeknownst to my husband had changed her will over and over and completely written him out, although he was her only caretaker. Her younger son’s wife closed off a section of the house and moved her into another section (everyone gasped, how cruel, but now I understand why). For years we cooked for her, cleaned for her, ran her around from hospital to hospital, doctor to doctor, specialist to specialist. Two years ago she had another ‘fake’ illness and took to bed again – we had to bring in full time caregivers, who she accused of trying to kill her. I cleaned out her room during a hospital stay as it was a hoarding mess and was accused of ‘stealing all her stuff’. She then decided she needed to spend weekends in our house in our spare room (the kids are big and have moved off to the UK). This was hell, with all the usual manipulations – being sweet, then throwing fits because no one was jumping when she said jump etc etc. We had a power failure one night and she accused me of turning off her power and trying to deprive her of oxygen (yes, she’s been guzzling oxygen for 15 year for no reason whatsoever). She manipulates and turns her family against each other and they decided she will go live with the other so 800 miles away. She left and bad-mouthed us from here to kingdom come. She has subsequently decided its not so great there as her son doesn’t stand for her nonsense and stands up for his wife and children. She came back 3 months ago for a 1 month visit. She is still here and manipulating and tantruming her way into staying for good. She changed the will so that my husband will get 25% of the farm and all the buildings and business that we have built, and hangs that over our head like a sword of damacles (without saying anything of course). She spends thousand every month on doctors visits and medication and complains constantly that she is a pauper. She has a blood pressure apparatus and takes her blood pressure every half an hour – this has gone on for years – she would phone my husband any time – even 2 am in the morning to rush her to hospital for high blood pressure or come over and sit with her to make sure she is ok. This morning she sat me down and got me to spill my guts about things that I worry about, my children, the future etc. This afternoon she went berserk and told my husband I treat her like dirt and left her alone all day and didn’t even check if she had oxygen. I am just gob smacked. He will not stand up to her. I am ready to walk out of a 22 year relationship. The best year of our lives was the year she was away. Don’t know what to do.


linda November 7, 2017 at 6:30 am

Sorry, forgot to put my name on the last post – anonymous above.. Just so upset have to get this off my chest. Forgot to add that in all the years her son has run around like her puppet we have pumped millions from his business onto the property and built a wedding venue – so our whole future is here – we had no idea she had written him in and out of the will at every whim. So she has us absolutely at her mercy. Her other son’s all went off (I think they just got as far away from her as possible) and made successful lives, own houses and happily live their lives. The youngest son across the road on the farm (in her original house) won’t even take her phone calls and does nothing for her. My husband still runs her around and tries his best to keep her happy and our marriage is miserable as a result. So in a nutshell – the only son that cares for her gets treated like dirt. The daughter in law that cares for her gets treated like dirt. The other son that she spent a year with she has now decided she does not want to return to – she wants to stay here and ‘die’ as she puts it. And to top it all, when she came back a few months ago and promptly made herself at home here, it was meant to be for 1 month, – she declared that she could not remember anything of the last few years or any of the years we have taken care of her – she doesn’t remember us caring for her at all. I feel like I’m in the twilight zone. So 22 years of taking year of this horrible creature, and all she can say is .. she can’t really remember any of that


Laura November 13, 2017 at 8:46 am

I’m in my late 40s and my moms 78. I’ve spent my entire teens and adult life wondering why I couldn’t stand my mom and feeling awful about myself: If someone can’t stand a parent who has done nothing wrong then they must be a bad person right? Then it was a light bulb stumbling upon an article about narc parents. Growing up my mom would try and make me and my brother the center of attention – play piano, constant bragging. And now she tries to do that with my children. I now know why I don’t want anyone to notice me.


Holly December 29, 2017 at 5:48 pm

I am so happy to have found this website and all these comments. When you don’t have anyone to talk to, that truly understands what you’re going through, it is brutal. My mother is 89, verbally and emotionally abusive, carries the victim mentality with her 24/7 and my life is hell because of it. I can’t get into the whole thing now, but she is much like everyone else’s posts of their mothers/mothers in law. I often tell my brother that when she dies, and everybody in the church is crying over her death, I will be crying for a different reason—I’ll be crying because I will finally be free from her emotional and verbal abuse. FINALLY FREE!!! Growing up & for my entire life, I have never “loved” my mother. I never felt loved by her, she never gave hugs or encouragement—all she did was threaten me, control me, hit me with a wooden paddle. She hasn’t changed a bit–in fact, she’s gotten worse. I am 50 years old, and she has not realized that she cannot boss me around, control me or threaten me anymore, even though she still tries & gets mad when it doesn’t work. I remember when I was a teenager, I vowed to never become like her—negative, nasty, miserable, boring, constantly complaining. My father dropped dead on the golf course when he was 67–almost 26 years ago. I swear to God, he was stressed to death with her and that’s what killed him. Lord knows he used scotch as his crutch to deal with everyday life—he was a functional alcoholic. Why he stayed with her, I don’t know. He probably figured that it would cost too much to divorce her. I have realized that many of the things my father used to do I am doing—I hum to myself when I am around her, when she starts complaining or verbally abusing me I walk out of the house & go outside or walk back to my bedroom & shut the door, turn on my laptop or iPad and watch something that makes me smile. She makes my life hell, she is the most ungrateful, miserable, negative, thankless person I’ve ever met. And the funny thing is that people that don’t know her think she is such a “cute old lady”. That boggles my mind!!! If they only knew what she is like!! Since she taught me NOTHING about love growing up, and nothing about loving relationships (because all she was ever concerned about was if I got pregnant, and made sure to let me know every couple of weeks that if I ever got pregnant I would be disowned), I am grateful that I met my first true love in high school and it was his mother, his parents, that taught me what unconditional love really is. My boyfriend’s mother was/is such a loving, caring, compassionate, empathetic, selfless, positive, encouraging and affectionate woman, that taught me all about unconditional love, compassion, empathy and selflessness. I was together with him for a total of 5 years, and I thank God that he put her into my life to teach me those things. I took me a while to realize it–I wish I put those lessons to use earlier than I did—but I am grateful that I did finally realize it. I still vow to NEVER be like my mother—I don’t think I ever will because I am not at all like her to begin with. I don’t want to write a diatribe, so I will just say that I am so happy that there are other people that know what it’s like and that know what I’m going through. I wish I could find a support group of people going through the same things I am going through, to get together once a month to discuss those things & get feedback and support from other people. Only if you have experienced it can you truly understand it. All I can say is that I am grateful for my wonderful dog, Holly—she makes me smile, is so loving & affectionate, and such a wonderful companion for me. I am not married, as my mother has effectively destroyed all of my romantic relationships, so I refuse to enter into another relationship until she is dead. I refuse to let her meet any of my friends or men that I go out with because she will act all happy and cute at first, and then eventually destroy the relationship in whatever way she can. My dog is an EXCELLENT judge of character and doesn’t even go near her when I’m around. My mother is so pathetic that she is jealous that my dog loves me more than her!!! That is the perfect example of how my mother is—jealous of a dog!! I will get through this, but only because I have finally realized that it is not me that has the problem(s), it is her. I am worthy of love—just because I wasn’t worthy of HER love means nothing. I often sit & think about how easy life could be without her in it……….


Just me January 3, 2018 at 8:27 pm

I feel like a prisoner, chiseling my way out of my cell. So many years spent chiseling away at walls that never yielded to my efforts. I am exhausted. My N Mom is 89 yo, and I am her “slave” – for as long as I can remember. My sisters stepped off from any responsibility after the death of our dad. I cope by hiring out as many tasks as possible – paying for the help with her funds. But still I feel overwhelmed. Her “helpers” at the facility where she lives buy into her “grand dame” persona and seem to think I am a horrible, neglectful daughter. They treat me as though I am a danger to her! They’ll say to her – in a suspicious tone, “Is everything alright, ____?” Even though I’m standing right there and attending to her. I am going crazy trying to figure out what she is telling them about me.
She has discarded literally dozens of people who no longer give her N supply. After reading many of the posts here, I now realize how common these behaviors are. But even now I am putting pieces together and seeing patterns that I think I have been in denial of until now. Like how many holidays, birthdays – even my son’s wedding – were “coincidentally” the occasions of her own dramatic events (she fell down…took too much medication…had a tantrum…). Or, she would simply not acknowledge our birthdays, without a word of explanation, at the same time remembering and sending cards to 2nd cousins or her latest friends’ grandchildren (and makes sure to relay this information to me.) Of course these people think she’s so sweet! She even bought a retirement gift for the guy who plunges her toilet. When I was young I was never given a ride to school, no matter the weather. My needs were – and are – invisible to her. I want to be FREE of her manipulation and despicable behavior. But I actually think she’s going to live to be 105. Sigh. My worst nightmare would be that my husband and I will never have peace in our retirement years. That we’ll be too old to enjoy it after she finally dies. I think I have been waiting for her to die so I can live. I need to know how I can start to live NOW. Before it’s too late.


Just me January 4, 2018 at 3:16 pm

Ok…on a roll…
Her lies are killing me. I have to read between the lines, question, interrogate, fact-check and double check. Repeat and repeat – only to be told that she “doesn’t remember it that way.” She told a whopper of a lie, and tried to get an aide at her asst’d living facility in trouble. I had to get the computer program time stamp results to prove she was lying. Then she stll persisted in telling her lies. The director visited her to set her straight – and she persisted in spreading the lies. When did she quit? When I explained to her that SHE would suffer the Ultimate consequence if they kicked her out for her malicious behavior. Why do I care? I don’t want to have to move her – again. By far, the worst lies are the ones she tells about me. I really do care what others think of me. I don’t want to be thought of as neglectful, esoecially considering that I am the ONLY one who cares for her, does her bills, takes her to appointments, shops – or even visits her. It’s ludicrous. Why would she lie about me, but not about the others who don’t do live to serve her? It’s so confusing.
I’ve been in a terrible funk since Christmas when at the last minute she opted out of coming to my house – but sat and waited until I could clean up, send home the guests, leave my unfurm husband and, utterly exhausted, drive over to feed her and give her gifts. Complained she had to wait all day to get fed.
I feel so “messed with.” She toys with my mind, my emotions and my compassionate nature. I feel like I’m losing it, unable to discern her real needs from her demands. Only after I’ve already resoonded can I see the sutuation clearly. I need better coping skills and learn how not to “jump” every time. Ok…better now. Thanks.


Barbara January 6, 2018 at 7:22 am



Leave a Comment

Previous post:

Next post: